I think I first became depressed as a young child. I was abandoned by my birth mother at a very young age, just six months, left at an orphanage where I languished for another five months before being adopted and sent to the United States where I grew up. Nearly as far back as I can remember, I was sad. I did not act out as a child, that came later but I would quite often isolate in my room feeling overwhelmed by sadness. I suppose it was unrealized grief, and having no words to describe the feelings, I was left fighting shadows of dragons that terrified me and seemed relentless in their attacks.Read More
Deep inside every human’s brain is a small almond-shaped set of neurons called the amygdala.The amygdala is responsible for regulating our emotions. It is part of what is known as the limbic system.
When a person encounters some form of stimuli, the amygdala sends out a chemical reaction to the body.Read More
My emotional life was always chaotic and out of control. Something would happen to me or someone would simply say the wrong thing and I was off to the races. My husband used to say that my anger was like a nuclear weapon that could go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds. I felt that no matter what I did, I could not control it. I would explode and lash out and God help anyone who was in my way because I would simply steamroll over the top of them.Read More
Marsha Linehan has never met me nor will our paths ever cross. She has, however, had a profound impact on my life and she is my hero because she literally saved my life.Read More
I have lived with BPD for a long, long time. In fact, there are many days that I marvel at the fact that I was able to survive myself because I spent years trying to kill myself. I made one very serious suicide attempt which, thankfully, was not successful but it had a tremendous impact on my life.Read More
am going to a big, fancy wedding in mid-July and so had to buy a big, fancy gown to wear. This also necessitated a new pair of shoes, what I call “girl shoes.” I don’t wear girl shoes very often any more. Since I broke my ankle and I am quite unsteady on my feet because of my brain injury, the idea of me wearing heels at all fills me with great trepidation. But, I care about this person who is getting married and I don’t want to disappoint or embarrass him.Read More