Posts tagged #BPDrecovery
How I was finally able to stop suffering over the lost relationships with my children

If you had asked me after I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) if I had any idea how it would affect my life, you’d have received an utterly blank look in return. I was diagnosed with BPD about 35 years ago. It had only been included in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, the psychiatrists’ bible in 1980, the same year I was diagnosed. At the time of my diagnosis, BPD was largely considered an incurable disease and many people died by their own hands because of the unbearable pain and anguish it causes.

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Why I stopped using the word crazy to define myself

I’m an admin on a Facebook page for people with Borderline Personality Disorder. I love doing this work and serving this community. It is one of the most meaningful things I do. Our site is set up so that when a member makes a post, an admin or a moderator has to approve it before it is posted. Last week,one of our members posted a link to a song by a young woman named Bebe Rexha, called “I’m gonna show you.” I listened to the song and was quite impressed with her voice but the lyrics…. I have not been able to get them out of my head and I have been thinking a LOT about what she has to say. Language is how we communicate with each other

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What standing in a torrential downpour taught me about radical acceptance

am going to a big, fancy wedding in mid-July and so had to buy a big, fancy gown to wear. This also necessitated a new pair of shoes, what I call “girl shoes.” I don’t wear girl shoes very often any more. Since I broke my ankle and I am quite unsteady on my feet because of my brain injury, the idea of me wearing heels at all fills me with great trepidation. But, I care about this person who is getting married and I don’t want to disappoint or embarrass him.

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How to transform hurt from anger into resilience

One of the most profound discussions I ever had with my DBT therapist had to do with my intense anger. My anger was always an almost knee-jerk response to any kind of slight, however small or insignificant. She asked me, “Do you think you might be reacting to feeling hurt instead and that you turn it into anger because that is an emotion you learned how to express from your father?” I did not really know what to say.

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What if someone could give you the keys to an emotional regulation toolbox?

What if you could be handed the keys to an emotional regulation toolbox? How valuable would that tbe to you? If you struggle with emotional dysregulation because you have BPD then DBT might be just what you need. But how do you access it? Where I live, in Canada, it is very difficult to access DBT. Unless you can pay a DBT therapist or someone trained as a DBT facilitator, it can be almost impossible to get into a class. Here, there is usually an 18 month waiting list.And, when you DO finally get into the class, it is usually a 24 week time commitment. So, what options are there?

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The Almost Unbearable Loneliness of BPD

I have very few friends anymore because over the course of the years of my mental illness, I chased almost all of them away. I woke up one day and realized just what a solitary existence I was living and how lonely I had become. My husband died some years ago and my children all left home to go to university in another town. Because the town where I live and where they grew up is quite small, they all resolved to never return. So, it is just me and the dog now.

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